As I move from place to place I feel the result of years of sedentariness.
The wrenching in my knees as I try to stand sends
unpleasant shamefulness to my brain to remind me of my sin.
The stiffness in my back tells me that my body is worn way
beyond its years.
The hugeness of my stomach forces me to face the reality of
the total neglect that I have so deceptively ignored myself with.
The slumpiness in my shoulders carries the demand of
dealing with the guilt and shame of a lifestyle with close to no movement at
all.
The pain in my arms as I try to lift myself up screams
gluttony, you fool, gluttony.
The heaviness in my heart is a constant enemy that haunts
every heart beat of what I have done to me.
The Lie:
What
I have become is shameful and I will never be able to
accept myself as I am. Being overweight is all my fault and I will never be able to change it.
The Truth:
If I look
at myself through the eyes of Christ I can come much closer to accepting myself
the way that I am. My weight is a result of a genetic disorder that I have and while I haven't been careful enough to keep me from gaining more weight, it is not my fault that I gain weight easily. I still struggle with the thoughts about people juding me about how I look but the Word of God
says, “….The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the
outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”
I Samuel 16:7b
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